The past two years have been unusual in my travel world. I've gone places and done things I never thought I would. Recently a mutual Facebook friend of mine and big girl number one mentioned some of Annabanana 's pix made her all wanderlusty. It got me thinking.
I thought at eighteen I needed to go far away, be different, see the world. I was wrong. I went to the school down the road that changed my life for good. The people I needed where there, not a world away.
My two big girls have been far away and doing exciting things. People constantly ask if I'm so proud or if I'm scared. Both are true but I'm more proud. Allow me this on Mother's Day, it's not where they have been or what they are "doing with their lives" that makes me proud, what makes me proud is the women they are, the way they love each other, have each others' backs and cheer each other on to big things. Today at lunch they went around telling me why they loved me. Tay admitted she didn't want to say in youth group "my mom teaches yoga and is hip". We all laughed. I loved it. Annabanana said she loves how I go into attack mode if someone is mean to her. Beebs said I'm just so caring and there. Sal misses me. My girls have fulfilled my old wanderlusty desires on so many levels.
Recently someone told me several reasons why they could not, nor wanted to be my friend. It's a hard pill to swallow. I keep saying all the Al-Anon things I know to be true (someone's opinion of you does not make it your reality,etc,etc). Today I saw my life, my loves, my story and it was good. It was safe. It was true.
Whenever any Stroud mentions our NYC Elizabeth, everyone says "I love her so much". She suggested a movie. "Safety Not Guaranteed". Watch it. There is a quote in the end that summed this all up to me. My girls. John Stroud. My travels. Meeting Alan Cumming (I'm his biggest fan if you didn't know). My story. And this is it-
"To go it alone or to go it with a partner....when you choose a partner you have compromises & sacrifices, but it is a price you pay. Do I want to follow every whim & desire I have as I make my way through time & space? Absolutely. But at the end of the day, do I need someone who when it gets hot has my back? I do."
Wanderlust came at the right time, as did the right peeps.
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